The news is in...

The news is in, and it's not good.

IUI#3 = BFN

How can you have a bajillion eggs and still not get pregnant?  This sucks.  A lot.

The clinic called at 8:30 this morning.  Really?  You couldn't wait until this afternoon?  Thanks fertility lady, for ruining my entire day.  ENTIRE DAY.  I wasn't even fully awake when you called.  I could've had breakfast before crying, but no.  Thanks a lot.

K was very sweet and rearranged her schedule so that she could work from home today - even before we had any inkling of how things would turn out.  It's been nice to get hugs and reassurance the world is in fact, not coming to an end.  And she made me tea.  I have the best wifey ever.

Happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July...or 3rd of July, which is when we celebrated the annual blow things up day.

Today we practiced being couch potatoes and then went to see Transformers #45, or whatever number they're on.  By the way, a side effect of watching said movie: as we were leaving the megaplex - both K and I were staring at all of the other cars, fully expecting them to jump up and start running and doing flips.  Yeah.  I blame the Imax 3D.     

In baby news - dun dudda dahhhh....there's nothing.   

13dpo and still a BFN.

Going for the beta in the morning, but really hoping to see a BFP on a pee stick.   

We should get the beta results Wednesday afternoon.

Come on BFP!  Pretty please. 

Symptoms

My symptoms:
Real or imagined?  Clomid, IUI, or pregnancy related? Eh, hard to tell.

1.  Frequent potty trips.

I've been peeing like crazy.   No, its not a UTI.  It just feels like something is pressing on my bladder.   I originally attributed this to the ginormous state of my ovaries due to the Clomid overstim.  Now, not so sure.  Annoying?  Definitely.  5 seconds after I pee my bladder feels full again.  Logically, I know that it's not. But all that potty training that happened  years ago is really hard to override.

2. Cramps, cramps, cramps

IUIs make me cramp. PMS/AF makes me cramp. But dang.  I've been crampy since the 1st IUI.  I'm ok with being crampy for weeks on end if that's what is need to grow a baby.  I'm not so ok with it if my body is just being mean to me.

3.  Nausea

I've been experiencing day long low level nausea.  Probably just from anxiety, but a girl can dream.


Yeah, I know.  I'm starting to crack.

I'm ok with that though.

9dpo.  Fingers still crossed.

Longest wait ever

This has been the longest tww ever.  Well, not even 2 weeks.  Not even a week.  Only 5 days in to the the tww and I'm about to go insane.

I've only worked 5 whole days in a ll of June.  5.  Sounds like a dream, right?  Eh, not so much.  The first week off was great because we went on vacation.   The rest of the time off has been due to a stress fracture in my foot.   Not so great.  Summer TV + can't walk much = time moving very slowly.

Lots of cramping from the Clom.id /IUIs isn't helping either.   Boo.


Oh well, 10 more days to go until we find out our answer.
Sure hoping its a BFP : )

A tinsy bit crazy

Just because I have a bazillion follicles on my left ovary and a uterus full of spermies - does not mean I should go crazy.  "Crazy" in the pick out baby bedding kind of way.  Nope.  Totally shouldn't do that.

...But I just can't help it!  Baby stuff is sooo cute.  Between the furniture and the bedding and those super cute little bitty shoes-  I mean come on.  Who doesn't think about that stuff constantly?  And don't you dare say normal, sane people.  Besides which, I wouldn't believe you anyway.  Everyone in my universe is obsessed with babies and baby stuff.  Yep.  I swear. Alright, so maybe "everybody" is just me and my one other friend who's also playing along in a similar science experiment.

Whew.  Deep breath.

My wife is on the way home from work and I promised her I wouldn't be crazy when she got home.  Well, not any more crazy than when she left this morning : )

One insem down, one more to go.
By this time tomorrow I'll be chock full of spermies and eggs.

Fingers crossed for a BFP
                             
                                     ...and for not quads.   Can I wish for both at the same time?

10dpo...and waiting

We've made it more than half way through our first IUI tww.  Each day has crept by very slowly.  I was sure that the days I was working would fly by, but no.  No they didn't.  Even though I worked my butt off making sure the world had lots of delicious kids cereal, the days still passed slowly.   Not fair.

I appreciate the heads up I got from reading other blogs.  You know, the ones that say how awful progesterone suppositories are.   Even though I knew about the side effects, I didn't really think they'd happen to me.  I mean come on.  I'm me.  I'm special.  Yeah....  My boobs have never been so sore.  An boy howdy do I feel sexy with that constant "leakage" of progesterone.  This stuff is doing wonders for my sex life. Ha.

Luckily the weather is beautiful this weekend, so I can distract myself in the garden.  Or so my plans go.  Still haven't made a trip to the garden center to pick up the soil additives that we need.  I did mow the front yard though : )  The garden center will have to wait until Sunday, because tomorrow we're heading out to my brother's house for a dual birthday celebration.  My birthday was 3 weeks ago, and my sister-in-laws's is next week.  They have the most adorable 15 month old daughter.  I love her to pieces.  People always talk about loving their children more than than they thought was humanly possible.  I feel that way about my niece.  And she's just so darn cute.  I hope we make a cute baby.

Beta will be either the 22nd or 23rd.  If AF doesn't show up.  I'm feeling quite pms-y.  Of course, that could just be progesterone.