My symptoms:
Real or imagined? Clomid, IUI, or pregnancy related? Eh, hard to tell.
1. Frequent potty trips.
I've been peeing like crazy. No, its not a UTI. It just feels like something is pressing on my bladder. I originally attributed this to the ginormous state of my ovaries due to the Clomid overstim. Now, not so sure. Annoying? Definitely. 5 seconds after I pee my bladder feels full again. Logically, I know that it's not. But all that potty training that happened years ago is really hard to override.
2. Cramps, cramps, cramps
IUIs make me cramp. PMS/AF makes me cramp. But dang. I've been crampy since the 1st IUI. I'm ok with being crampy for weeks on end if that's what is need to grow a baby. I'm not so ok with it if my body is just being mean to me.
3. Nausea
I've been experiencing day long low level nausea. Probably just from anxiety, but a girl can dream.
Yeah, I know. I'm starting to crack.
I'm ok with that though.
9dpo. Fingers still crossed.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Dangit
I really thought I'd be going back to work this week. Now it doesn't look so hopeful. The paperwork I picked up from the doctor today says "No walking, standing, or climbing" until the end of July. END OF JULY???? I'm already going insane and it's still June. How's a girl supposed to survive a tww w/ no distractions? I need distractions people!
Stupid broken foot...
Sigh. Laying around is much better for some would-be-babies than my normal working environment, so there is a least a bright side.
Stupid broken foot...
Sigh. Laying around is much better for some would-be-babies than my normal working environment, so there is a least a bright side.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Longest wait ever
This has been the longest tww ever. Well, not even 2 weeks. Not even a week. Only 5 days in to the the tww and I'm about to go insane.
I've only worked 5 whole days in a ll of June. 5. Sounds like a dream, right? Eh, not so much. The first week off was great because we went on vacation. The rest of the time off has been due to a stress fracture in my foot. Not so great. Summer TV + can't walk much = time moving very slowly.
Lots of cramping from the Clom.id /IUIs isn't helping either. Boo.
Oh well, 10 more days to go until we find out our answer.
Sure hoping its a BFP : )
I've only worked 5 whole days in a ll of June. 5. Sounds like a dream, right? Eh, not so much. The first week off was great because we went on vacation. The rest of the time off has been due to a stress fracture in my foot. Not so great. Summer TV + can't walk much = time moving very slowly.
Lots of cramping from the Clom.id /IUIs isn't helping either. Boo.
Oh well, 10 more days to go until we find out our answer.
Sure hoping its a BFP : )
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
There gone, they're all gone
A look of pure astonishment is not what I expect out of the baby making doctor. She's been doing this for more than 10 years and been a gyn for longer. What could she possibly be seeing with the dildo cam? She was seriously flustered this morning.
Apparently, she didn't expect to see that all 4 of the mature follicles had ruptured overnight. Was she expecting only 2 of them to go? I have no idea. What I do know is that yesterday she would have sworn on her life that only 4 of the follicles where mature. Ummm...oops?
Yeah. There aren't 4 little eggs floating in what is hopefully a sea of spermies. THERE ARE 5!!!
Upping our odds of getting pregnant is awesome. Upping our odds of needing to consider selective reduction, not so awesome.
The doc even took a moment to tell us that we'd really need to have a "discussion" if it's more than 2. She seemed very concerned about triplets.
The two week wait begins. Testing on 7/5.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
A tinsy bit crazy
Just because I have a bazillion follicles on my left ovary and a uterus full of spermies - does not mean I should go crazy. "Crazy" in the pick out baby bedding kind of way. Nope. Totally shouldn't do that.
...But I just can't help it! Baby stuff is sooo cute. Between the furniture and the bedding and those super cute little bitty shoes- I mean come on. Who doesn't think about that stuff constantly? And don't you dare say normal, sane people. Besides which, I wouldn't believe you anyway. Everyone in my universe is obsessed with babies and baby stuff. Yep. I swear. Alright, so maybe "everybody" is just me and my one other friend who's also playing along in a similar science experiment.
Whew. Deep breath.
My wife is on the way home from work and I promised her I wouldn't be crazy when she got home. Well, not any more crazy than when she left this morning : )
One insem down, one more to go.
By this time tomorrow I'll be chock full of spermies and eggs.
Fingers crossed for a BFP
...and for not quads. Can I wish for both at the same time?
...But I just can't help it! Baby stuff is sooo cute. Between the furniture and the bedding and those super cute little bitty shoes- I mean come on. Who doesn't think about that stuff constantly? And don't you dare say normal, sane people. Besides which, I wouldn't believe you anyway. Everyone in my universe is obsessed with babies and baby stuff. Yep. I swear. Alright, so maybe "everybody" is just me and my one other friend who's also playing along in a similar science experiment.
Whew. Deep breath.
My wife is on the way home from work and I promised her I wouldn't be crazy when she got home. Well, not any more crazy than when she left this morning : )
One insem down, one more to go.
By this time tomorrow I'll be chock full of spermies and eggs.
Fingers crossed for a BFP
...and for not quads. Can I wish for both at the same time?
Monday, June 20, 2011
Clomi*d, where have you been all my life?
Sooo excited.
We're on try number 4, IUI #3, and our first round with clomid.
When I went in for the trigger shot on Friday, all our hopes seemed to be dashed. It looked like only 1 egg would make it to maturity -and we'd have to come back on Monday for the trigger shot, because that 1 egg wasn't quite ready.. While we've been lucky to get an egg each cycle, we've only gotten AN egg. We wanted so much to get at least 2 eggs after switching to clom*d. Our spirits were a little low all weekend.
Three days made all the difference. This morning's ultrasound/trigger shot was an entirely different experience.
Laying on the table, I started to get nervous because the doctor was being very quiet. The only sound in the room was the clicking on the ultrasound machine, measurement after measurement being recorded. It felt like forever. I finally got up the courage to ask what she was seeing. She was seeing eggs. Eggs, eggs, and more eggs! So many that she did the measurements twice. We were teetering on the edge of having to cancel the cycle - so she wanted to be extra sure that she made the right call. I think total, there were about 10 eggs on the left ovary. No worries though. Only 4 are mature. The others are lagging behind a good bit. Absolutely nothing on the right ovary, which is par for the course...and a little worrisome.
We have 4 eggs!
First insem is tomorrow morning and then another the following day.
Whew. This is the polar opposite of how I was expecting to feel today.
Fingers crossed for some super swimmers!
We're on try number 4, IUI #3, and our first round with clomid.
When I went in for the trigger shot on Friday, all our hopes seemed to be dashed. It looked like only 1 egg would make it to maturity -and we'd have to come back on Monday for the trigger shot, because that 1 egg wasn't quite ready.. While we've been lucky to get an egg each cycle, we've only gotten AN egg. We wanted so much to get at least 2 eggs after switching to clom*d. Our spirits were a little low all weekend.
Three days made all the difference. This morning's ultrasound/trigger shot was an entirely different experience.
Laying on the table, I started to get nervous because the doctor was being very quiet. The only sound in the room was the clicking on the ultrasound machine, measurement after measurement being recorded. It felt like forever. I finally got up the courage to ask what she was seeing. She was seeing eggs. Eggs, eggs, and more eggs! So many that she did the measurements twice. We were teetering on the edge of having to cancel the cycle - so she wanted to be extra sure that she made the right call. I think total, there were about 10 eggs on the left ovary. No worries though. Only 4 are mature. The others are lagging behind a good bit. Absolutely nothing on the right ovary, which is par for the course...and a little worrisome.
We have 4 eggs!
First insem is tomorrow morning and then another the following day.
Whew. This is the polar opposite of how I was expecting to feel today.
Fingers crossed for some super swimmers!
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Where we are now
So... it's been a while.
Yeah.
Here's what we've been up to:
The try in April was a BFN.
We took May off, thank god. A month withno ttc stuff less ttc stuff was awesome. The week long vacation we took definitely helped too.
Yeah, so that little bit off ttc stuff that we did included one very bad experience. A bad experience involving 4 people staring at my girly parts, an ultrasound machine, a million gallons of saline and an uncooperative uterus and fallopian tubes. I forget what the test was called - but its the one where they pump you full of saline and air and check the uterus for polyps and make sure your tubes are open. The experience was awful. And painful. Yep, painfully awful.
In other news - gained a bunch of weight. Got yelled at by the baby making doctor so now we're back on the South Beach Diet. I'm having a hard time with my latest breakup with carbs. I really do love carbs. But I feel like crap and need to loose weight to help make baby.
I also took a gigantic step today. I found a therapist and went for my first session this morning. I was even a big girl about it and made the next 2 appointments. This is my first time in therapy since 2004. But its something I need to do, for myself and my family.
Yeah.
Here's what we've been up to:
The try in April was a BFN.
We took May off, thank god. A month with
Yeah, so that little bit off ttc stuff that we did included one very bad experience. A bad experience involving 4 people staring at my girly parts, an ultrasound machine, a million gallons of saline and an uncooperative uterus and fallopian tubes. I forget what the test was called - but its the one where they pump you full of saline and air and check the uterus for polyps and make sure your tubes are open. The experience was awful. And painful. Yep, painfully awful.
In other news - gained a bunch of weight. Got yelled at by the baby making doctor so now we're back on the South Beach Diet. I'm having a hard time with my latest breakup with carbs. I really do love carbs. But I feel like crap and need to loose weight to help make baby.
I also took a gigantic step today. I found a therapist and went for my first session this morning. I was even a big girl about it and made the next 2 appointments. This is my first time in therapy since 2004. But its something I need to do, for myself and my family.
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